(Okay, this is a pretty big rant post about humans. Guess it was one of those weeks.)
That’s been my week due to exhaustion and weird health blips. I became so worn down by Monday evening that all attempts to edit were met with blank staring. I did manage to get one page of Darwin & the Beast Collector done. Hopefully, I can recover and get the rest of the chapter done this weekend. Need fresh air badly, so I’ll be taking a bunch of walks for Pokemon, my health, and socializing. Might not be enough to ward off the fatigue, but fingers crossed.
That’s if this is even fatigue. The whole experience is strange. I wake up feeling ‘odd’, but my blood-oxygen, pulse, and blood pressure are typically normal. Once I had really high BP for a minute after waking up in a panic. So, this could be anxiety, which wasn’t helped by me accepting a glass of wine last night. Ugh, I don’t drink much these days, but I still need to say no more consistently. Anyway, I did my best to rest when I could, but there were a lot of stressors.
First, it was a week long ‘Battle of the Classes’ at work, so a bunch of activities were going on. It’s a lot of fun, but the kids I work with can have trouble. Schedules are changed, so all of us are thrown off. I even found myself suffering from a little overstimulation, which is why walks after work were necessary. Next week won’t be as crazy, but we still have 4 to go before reaching spring break. I’m trying really hard not to succumb to whatever is beating me up because I don’t want to take a day off aside from a personal day in April. I don’t know why I’m determined to do so, but I am. Maybe it’s to make sure I don’t lose money even though I have enough sick days. Not making much extra money, which is also why I’m trying to convince people to give me Lego giftcards for my birthday in April.
I’m also tired of dealing with selfish people who see being fair as them being victimized and screwed. Maybe I give off a pheromone that attracts narcissists because the amount of people I’ve run into this year with this mentality is insane. Did I miss a memo where everyone is out for themselves? I’m typically down and feeling like the universe is out to get me, but these people are the types to punch you in the face and call you a monster for their knuckles getting bruised. They’ll pull a stunt and shriek in rage when you give them a taste of their own medicine. Exhausting to deal with such people.
Third, I’m also tired of . . . Okay, this might piss some people off. I’m tired of people who think empathy is a weakness and caring about fellow humans who aren’t from your ‘tribe’ is wrong. These are the same people who applaud while watching the rich and powerful turn people against each other and act like barely cloaked monsters. Why? Because the groups being targeted aren’t the same ones they hate primarily for existing or voicing a different opinion. The amount of times I’ve been insulted, ridiculed, and faced with anger by stating you should care about certain groups or that a person’s favorite billionaire is clearly a bad person is crazy. Even worse, I sometimes see kids emulating the public displays of rudeness and cruelty because the powerful are doing it with applause instead of consequences.
That was as vague as I could make it since I know a few people who watch this blog and will come at me in real life. Some probably will even if I’m not talking about them. Ugh, I don’t even know where to go from here.
Next week doesn’t have a going on, but I might be able to get a little editing in on Wednesday or Thursday. I still bring a chapter with me to work in case I’m the only one without a coverage at some point. Can’t edit when other people are around because I feel it might be rude. Definitely not a good idea this week because this is the hump for the stretch between winter and spring break. 3 weeks down and then 3 weeks left after this one, which is going to be grueling. On the plus side, the weather looks nice enough for most of the afternoons to give me some walking time after work. That’s been helping with my mood in spite of the exhaustion.
So, what are the goals of the week?
- Edit more of Darwin & the Beast Collector
- Daily walks . . . That came out weird.
- Helping son with homework and life stresses.
- Do a few May posts.
- Puzzle time.
- Continue planning dinners for a period of time I have the house to myself.
- Try to avoid the above stressors. I know one of them is unavoidable.
- Sleep better.
- Finish watching ‘Invincible’.









