Sadly, I didn’t get to type in a lot of edits this week. Got through two sections of chapter 1 and that was me pushing through a lot of lethargy. All of the appointments and events didn’t help much either. So, what went wrong?
It all started last weekend with Pokemon Go-Fest, which was a lot of fun. It was two days of catching Pokemon and being in a huge group of people. There was excitement and conversations. Unfortunately, it was also REALLY hot and humid, which I thought I had handled with a hat and 3 bottles of water on day one. Since I had to stop earlier than other people, I tried to push through a little extra instead of resting. Made it 5.5 hours and began feeling dizzy. Had to retreat to my nearby car and rest in the air conditioning until I could go home. Went back out on Sunday with a better mindset, but I was still worn down pretty quickly. This became the theme of the week.
I will add that I had a block party to go to Saturday night, which wasn’t high activity, but I was outside. Throughout the week, I had work and that was high activity even though it was mostly indoors. The exception was Thursday when we spent the day at an amusement park, which was rough on my body. By the time I got home from that one, I was feeling like I was about to die. Of course, I had an appointment that evening too and had to drag myself there. The daily Pokemon Go outings were done at the mall or kept to 20 minutes just to do a few things. It still wore me down.
Let’s be honest. It’s clear I got heat exhaustion and wasn’t able to let my body fully recover. I’d like to say this weekend will be different, but I’m taking my son to mini-golf with two of his friends for his birthday. It’s next weekend, but I don’t have him then, so I’m celebrating it now. We’re going to do Pokemon Go at the mall and a park on the coast where there’s a breeze and lots of benches. If I feel too out of it, we’ll come home to play games instead. Don’t think I’ll be able to touch Darwin & the Avenging Elf until Wednesday if I’m lucky. Just so hard to focus even on typing in edits for more than 30 minutes when I’m drained.
The only progress I’m making is on the Lego Gotham City set because that’s easier to tinker with before bed. Not sure if I should be proud of this since it means I’m not getting anywhere with my writing. Finished the general notes for the thief group idea, so I’m letting that simmer. I really thought I’d be able to type in 243 pages of edits by this time and dive into Darwin & the Demon Game. Guess that’s going to be a post-Oswego trip project since I won’t be taking it with me. I think I’m just going to focus on the notebook stuff like ‘Phi Beta Files’ and maybe preparing the thief group one. I might take time to reorganize all of my ideas, which I haven’t touched in about 5 years. Let’s see which ones still possess a spark.
Emotionally, this week has been a real beating. Tempers have run high in a few arenas and I’m getting tired of bullshit. Too many people think I’m stupid and unaware of what’s going on, but I’ve just been shrugging it off because confrontation would cost me way too much. Hypocrisy is a pain to deal with because you can never get the hypocrite to realize what they are. (Pretty sure I know someone who will agree with me wholeheartedly in the comments since he’s said all of this almost verbatim.) Anyway, I’ve spent my life playing nice and keeping my head down to avoid messy situations. Yet, they still find me and stress me out, but with me being more defenseless. I’m always in a position where I can’t fight back because I’d lose something precious even if I won the ensuing battle. It just isn’t worth it.
Another source of emotional twitchiness is someone asking me what I could do to sell my books. I explained that I need money, connections, and time to properly promote. They asked why I couldn’t just go out and at least find the connections, but it doesn’t seem to work that way. Even if I could do that now, I wouldn’t have the money and time to do much more than talk shop. Lack of time definitely means I’m barely able to even writing something much less promote my books and those of other people. I said this feels like writing is a rich person’s hobby these days, which made my heart hurt because I didn’t say it as a joke. Maybe things will change down the road, but it certainly seems I’m never going to get anywhere since I have so much else to deal with. People say my time will come or I can publish more when I retire, but I have to live that long and have enough money to stop working. Jury is out on either one considering how brutal modern society seems to be.
This week is going to be fairly busy like before with appointments on Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. I’m going to be trying hard to type in at least a chapter section of edits on the nights I don’t have my son. Wednesday might see even more progress since the Pokemon Go event is only from 6-7 and I get home around 2:30. Next weekend is going to be shaky since that Saturday has a ‘big’ Pokemon Go event on Saturday, but I don’t think I have to be out there for more than an hour or two. Then, I have birthday time with my son on Sunday. I’ll type in edits around all of that and maybe I’ll get further than I expected.
Goals of the week?
- Recover from heat exhaustion.
- Birthday outings with my son.
- Type in as many edits for Darwin & the Avenging Elf as possible.
- Continue working on Lego Gotham City when too tired to edit.
- You know what . . . I’m organizing my story ideas this week. Found all of my old lists and the stuff I never put into notebooks is only the superheroes of Windemere stuff AND a bunch of stand alone things. I should be able to sort through the mess and reorganize. Anything I can’t remember will be junked.
- Get extra sleep and hydrate.
- Catch more Pokemon when possible.












