Goal Post: One Week Into 2024 and I’m Ready for 2025

Ouch.

Not a day has gone by between last Saturday and today where there wasn’t some ridiculous drama.  So, I didn’t get any writing or editing done.  Managed to fiddle with some Lego sets and a puzzle, but that was it.  The stinky stuff was flying and it even forced me to take one of my ‘when needed’ anxiety meds to help me sleep.  You know it’s bad when a full dose of Zzzquil doesn’t make a dent.

I can’t really talk about much of what happened in detail.  At work, we had to get back into our regular schedule, but obstacles occurred.  The temptation to let my aching mind and body get a day off was high, but I didn’t want to leave my coworkers in the lurch when we were already strained.  Didn’t think it would look good if I took a day off so soon after a long break too.  Figure I can make it to the weekend where sleep and hydration can push me towards recovery.  Last night, I could feel a familiar ache in my gut and lower back, so I might be bedridden at some point.  As long as it’s over the weekend and doesn’t strike next week.  Friggin’ IBS hasn’t reared its head in well over a year, so I guess it was due to remind me it exists.

The bigger issue was something I had to deal with outside of work.  I feel like I’ve been backed into a corner with a certain situation.  Also that being a person who openly shows his emotions results in me being seen as a monster by those who don’t really know me.  I show my anger and frustration, which makes me an easy target for those with more control to trigger me around others.  Feeling like I’m being poked and prodded like a captured beast until I flip doesn’t help my psyche.  Seeing how other people with less visible, but equally vicious, tempers get a pass because they don’t appear angry causes frustration.  Even when I hold myself back, the few blips get pointed out and I feel like I’m being vilified again.  Having to face this on top of the whirlwind of work and not being able to rest has left me drained.

No idea what I can do about it.  Long ago, I was the type of person who kept his anger on the inside and never talked about it.  That was making my insides feel rotten and I’d lash out when I couldn’t hold it in anymore.  So, I decided to not let the negative feelings get pent up and let people know I was upset.  Sad thing is that only gets people to tell you to stop complaining, grow up, or another comment to minimize my feelings.  Is it any wonder I get confused or even argue with people who try to compliment me or say that my emotions are justified?  Doesn’t say much about my life if comfort and positive comments are practically an alien language.  Then again, I’ve been reading up how this is fairly common among people.  Huh, pretty weird goal post, but my mind is wandering and letting stuff out to clear the weekend.

My only plan for this weekend is to edit as much of Darwin & the Fate Bracelet as possible.  I kept bringing it to work to do some editing, but I never had any time to tinker with it. Maybe next week and hopefully I get far this weekend, which means staving off whatever my guts are attempting to do.  Hydration is key.  Since I’m using a paper copy, I’ll be able to move around the house and give myself a change of scenery from time to time.  Let’s see.  16 chapters and I can typically edit 3 per day, but it might be more since this is the 4th time I’ve gone through it.  Just trying to tighten up any areas that seem flimsy.  Makes for a good January project since I can’t touch Darwin & the Joy Path until February when the ‘life event’ has either ended or hit a new stage.

I was going to say that I won’t get much done this week, but it might end up being the opposite.  Tuesday is going to be messy since that’s the only day to jam in a bunch of appointments and activities.  The rest of the week might not be too bad.  My son is in a special music festival called All County, which requires several late nights at school to rehearse.  That gives me a bunch of afternoons and evenings to do writing and biking after work.  Be great if I can get the editing done and inputted by the end of the month.  Not sure what to do with Darwin & the Fate Bracelet after that since it will still be a while before I can publish.  I was aiming for end of summer anyway.  Guess I can start writing Darwin & the Joy Path.  Weird idea:

What if I edit all 5 finished Darwin books before I begin the 6th?

Goals of the week:

  1. Recover from the previous week.
  2. Spend time with son when I can since he’ll be busy.
  3. Edit Darwin & the Fate Bracelet.
  4. Work on March blog posts.
  5. Biking.
  6. Go back to eating salads for lunch.
  7. Hydrate to ward off IBS episode for as long as possible.
  8. Sleep.
  9. To Be Determined Later
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Questions 3: How Was Your 2023?

So, I’m using this month to get a few things started and other things finished.  Also, I need some time to formulate more types of Tuesday posts and other topics.  Not to mention the ‘life event’ is still going on and no idea when it will finish.  In other words, I’m going to be doing ‘Questions 3’ for the January Fridays.  Enjoy!

  1. What was the best part of 2023?
  2. What is one part of 2023 that you would change?
  3. Describe 2023 in one word.
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The Mental Game of Writing — Mindset

Hey, guys! I’m honored and excited to join the Story Empire team. Many of you I’ve known for years, so in a sense, it already feels like home. Now …

The Mental Game of Writing — Mindset
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Poetry Day: Happy ‘Not Dead’ Day

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(A fun birthday poem.  Wrote this during a year where I wasn’t too thrilled with getting older.  So, I was calling it my ‘not dead’ day.  Still have these moments at times since my birthday always comes and goes.  There’s this middle period of life where birthdays don’t feel important.  Too old to be excited about another year, but too young to be happy about making it.)

Another year has passed

Dodging death’s embrace

Celebrating my survival

In a lethal world

I have defeated

All diseases that took hold

Avoided accidents

From work and home

No phantom failing

Of essential parts

Evil acts of God and man

Have passed me by

Today I reap the prize

A precious cake

Of my request

Branded with my name

This is my reward

For not dying this last year

Happy birthday to me

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Best of 2023 #5: The Blue Whale

(This was originally posted on January 8th, 2023.)

I was trying to decide on the first animal post of 2023.  Took a while before I realized that I should start with the gentle giant: Blue Whale.

These whales can grow from 80 to 100 feet with the record being 108 feet.  They can weigh from 100,000 to 150,000 pounds.  Their tongue alone weighs about as much as a full-grown elephant.  A blue whale’s heart alone can be 400 pounds and it may only beat twice per minute when the animal is submerged.  They start off big too with newborn calves being 8,800 pounds and 26 feet long.  Blue whales have one of the fastest growth rates in the animal kingdom at 200 pounds per day.

One thing about the blue whale is that it feeds on one of the small animals.  Blue whales have baleen, which are filter-like ‘teeth’ in their mouths.  They move through the ocean and the water goes through the baleen.  The hairs catch the tiny food, which is then swallowed by a throat that is the size of a dinner plate.  In other words, a blue whale would choke on a human.  They eat nearly 9,000 pounds of krill a day.

Blue whales are the loudest animals on the planet too.  Their calls can be heard by others from up to 1,000 miles away.  They hit a decibel level of 188.  To compare, a jet engine comes in at 140 decibels.  Blue whales can call at a very low frequency as well.  Their range here is 8-25 hertz.  The songs vary by population groups too.  Studies have shown that there is a decline in tonal frequency, which may be due to an increase in populations . . . That brings us to everyone’s favorite part.

The blue whale is considered endangered, but it’s population is slowly increasing.  They gestate for 10-12 months, which means they don’t give birth very often.  This doesn’t easily offset the damage that was done by its top predator, which isn’t the orca.  Yes, orcas do hunt blue whales, but human whaling in the past decimated the blue whales.  They used to be untouchable until someone invented those huge harpoon guns.  This brought them from 350,000 to the current number of 25,000, which is slowly increasing.  People wanted their oil back in the day, but they’ve been protected since 1966.  Currently, they are still in danger from being struck by large shipping vessels and pollution.

Let’s go to the pictures and videos:

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A Different Perspective

Happy New Year, SE Readers!  Joan with you today with my first “official” post of 2024. I’ve always looked at each new year as a new beginning. A …

A Different Perspective
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Legends of Windemere Series & Quest of the Brokenhearted Available on Amazon!

All Cover Art by Jason Pedersen

For this month, I’m going to use Tuesdays to do a promo for the paperbacks.  There are still eBooks though.  Fingers crossed that I get a few sales of both during the start of this year.

First up, we have Legends of Windemere.  The series that started it all and established Windemere.  Everything I write in this world will connect to this series in some way.  It could be a location, cameo, or concept.  You can still read future stories without this one, but it’s nice to have a series that can set a foundation.  Enjoy a brief teaser from Curse of the Dark Wind and then check out the series.

*****

Delivering a friendly smack to the other warrior’s arm, Timoran shakes his head and walks away. He hears Delvin jogging to catch up, the thick drifts making it hard for him to move as quickly as the barbarian. A howling wind whips through the town, traces of the Dark Wind barely visible in the moonlight. The hiss of Nyx’s defensive spells fill the air as the living curse is devoured by fiery strands.

“We shall go to my room to drink and discuss the plan,” Timoran suggests as they return to the central tower.

“Good idea. You can help me come up with a better name for the Cave of Winds.”

“I do not think we are allowed to rename locations, my friend.”

The brown-haired warrior smirks as he says, “What’s the fun of being a prophesized champion if you can’t rename an ancient landmark or two?”

“For the sake of future cartographers, I will drink wild rum and you will have water.”

*****

Cover Art by Sean Harrington

Since there are only 5 Tuesdays this month, I’m going to be putting Quest of the Brokenhearted here too.  After all, this is a sequel/spinoff of the bigger series, so they’re connected.  Giving it a longer excerpt since I couldn’t find a short one that worked.  This double promo thing is an experiment too.  Starting off the year with a gamble.

*****

Roland tackles Rayne and twists, so that his body is the one that goes through the wooden door. The wind is knocked from the man’s lungs and he is dazed for a second while the elf scrambles under a table. A shadow falls over the abandoned store and a foul-smelling breeze is pushed through the entrance. Looking up, Roland sees that the opening is blocked by a maw full of yellowed teeth and a dark purple tongue. He rolls and dives to the side to avoid a barrage of drool-dripping chains that erupt from the monster’s throat. They smash into the far wall and grab a red-furred monster, which is promptly yanked into the waiting mouth. Struggling to dislodge the creature after it sprouts spines, the predator moves away from the building and violently shakes its head. The only visible parts of the beast are large paws that are covered in ebony fur, which bristles and ripples with every movement.

“Who would be crazy enough to unleash Freybug inside the city?” Roland asks as he gets to Rayne. The elf is curled in a ball around the burbling Gooie Pig while she shivers from pure terror. “I guess you’ve never seen a monster like this. All you’ve known are the more civilized ones and those who fight as champions. The Shadow Earl and Princess Cyrena must have shielded you from the likes of Freybug. It’s clear he wants to eat you.”

“But I didn’t do anything wrong!” Rayne suddenly shouts. Wanting to get away from the marketplace, she kicks free and scrambles for the nearby stairs. “Monsters like that aren’t supposed to be in Lacarsis. The citizens are nice and don’t eat each other unless it’s an arena fight or they broke a law. I’m going to the castle and telling the Shadow Earl. He’ll find the person who started this and then things will go back to normal.”

“What if he’s the one who did it?”

“He would never cause such chaos.”

“You saw the scrying portals in the sky, which means this is an official match.”

“That doesn’t mean the Shadow Earl did this.”

“I know, but he’s at least aware and letting it continue.”

A loud snort from outside draws their attention to where they see a wet nose poking into the building. Embers fall from the nostrils as Freybug takes a deep breath that sucks most of the air from the room. Roland and Rayne rush up the stairs, the muscular man getting ahead to smash the door with a bone-jarring punch. They hear the plume of fire explode below as they get to the second floor, their retreat stopped by spouts of flame that slip through the floor planks. Smoke billows up the stairs along with the screams of those who were still hiding in the shop. A powerful impact causes the structure to tilt backwards, the wooden beams creaking from the pressure. Knowing it is only a matter of time before the building collapses, they hurry into the nearest room and scramble out the window. On the other side of the roof from Freybug, they stay low and quickly move to where they can jump to safety. Before they can cross the narrow alley, the entire second floor is lifted into the air and shaken as it sits atop the monster’s head. Putting an arm around Rayne’s waist, Roland blindly jumps for what he hopes is another building. To his horror, he misses the next roof and plummets towards the ground.

With a squeal, the Gooie Pig expands to cover both of its companions and use its body to cushion the impact. The creature explodes and splatters across the street, the loud pop creating a shockwave that stuns Roland and Rayne. Unable to move, the pair can only watch as Freybug bucks the building off his broad head and sniffs the air. The enormous dog pauses to scratch behind one of his floppy ears with a rear leg that is thicker than a full-grown oak. He turns in the wrong direction to investigate a food cart, which he devours while happily wagging a narrow tail that cuts through stone like a keen blade. The wind changes to carry Rayne’s scent to Freybug’s nose, the delicious aroma slightly muffled by the Gooie Pig’s rancid odor. Unsure if he is looking at the right morsel, the dog leans in close to sniff at the frozen elf with enough strength to pull her against his nose. Growling and drooling, the feral champion opens his mouth and is about to unleash his chains when he abruptly yelps in pain. Whirling around sends a ripple of agony throughout Freybug’s body, the sensation emanating from between his legs until the agony gradually fades away.

Turning back to Rayne, the giant dog retreats a few steps at the sight of a new figure standing in front of his prey. Kira spins her new kusari-gama at her side, the polished sickle already dripping with blood. No longer wearing her nightgown, the adventurer is clothed in a bodysuit that covers her from shoulders to ankles. A subtle feather pattern is in the royal blue material, which has gold edging around the collar and wrists. Designed to be worn under armor instead of alone, the enchanted clothing looks too thin to give her any protection. Yet, there is an occasional thrum of power whenever Freybug gets close to investigate. A thin aura covers Kira’s flesh whenever she is in direct sunlight, but the energy is dissipated every time the dog snorts in her direction. Reaching up to pull at a dark green choker, the adventurer takes a step forward to see if her opponent backs away. She scowls when the growling beast holds his ground and hunkers down to pounce.

“I doubt this is going to be anything other than a slugfest,” Kira whispers while walking to the side.

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Hello 2024

If you’re not working then grab a free copy of Beginning of a Hero.  Maybe send it to a friend who wants to the start the year off with magic.

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Good-Bye, 2023! Happy-Ish New Year

Sure we’re all busy doing something.  So, enjoy the humor, celebrate safely, and hopefully ‘see’ everyone around next year.  (All images found in Google Image Search.)

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Final Goal Post of 2023

Well, here we are on the last Saturday of the year.  I’ve had a week to get some final goals completed and I may have made some progress.  Since it’s holiday break, I did as much resting and biking as I could.  The weather knocked me on my butt a bit along with a day where I got hit with a bout of stress-induced blahs.  Guess my anxiety wanted to remind me that it didn’t get erased completely.  So, what happened?

Surprisingly, I did accomplish all of the goals I made last week.  I built the new headboard and needed some help because it became a two man job.  Can’t hold a heavy piece of furniture in place, hold a bolt in place, and wrench it in when you only have two hands.  I tried to do the first part with my shoulder, but nearly broke my neck and the headboard in the same move.  It was all done before lunch and I was happy to test out the light . . . All 16 colors!  Why do I need purple?  They had a strobe function too, which is insanely fast and should have a seizure warning sticker.  I’m only going to use the normal light for when I want to read before bed.  Got more shelves too, which is why I bought the Lego plant set for decorations.

I managed to finish Darwin & the Joy Path outline and that kind of took most of my creative juices.  The weather threw me off and another thing happened that caused an erasure of my hope and positivity.  I had to keep working on a ‘Demon Slayer’ puzzle to distract myself enough to get some oomph for ‘Phi Beta Files’.  I managed to get all of the supporting cast designed, but I didn’t get to the first story event list.  Maybe I’ll do that on Monday after I drop my son off with his mom.  Either that or I’ll start editing Darwin & the Fate Bracelet.  Torn on what to do and it might be determined entirely by my general mood.

My hope was to finish the year with more of a smile, but certain things happened to make it hard to accomplish.  Things started off good in January even though I had the sleeping issues.  Then, bumps in the road formed and I thought I could act the same way as someone else, but that didn’t work out.  Guess I’m not a chosen one who can get away with certain activities.  Then, the ‘life event’ started up at the same time I began a new school year and my son entered high school.  I struggled with that alongside working towards a sleep apnea diagnosis, which can after all of the other health things.  Remember the drug-based heart test I was put through instead of a treadmill?  I still twitch when I think about that incident.  I’d like to say 2023 was a mixed bag, but I feel like it has more raisins than chocolate pieces.  Don’t like raisins.

Going back to the week, my time with my son started Wednesday night.  Of course, we had the usual onslaught of appointments on Thursday.  There’s always one day during my part of a break where the two of us have appointments.  Anyway, we managed to get a little Pokemon Go in even though we were exhausted.  Friday was relaxing in the morning and hitting up a nearby museum that has an old-school arcade running for the break.  My son ran around trying a bunch of games.  I beat ‘X-Men Arcade Game’ and ‘Golden Axe’ while trying out a few others.  If I had 30 more minutes, I would have beaten ‘The Simpsons Arcade Game’.  It’s unlimited continues with these things too.  Next time they open it up, I’ll have to try again.  Keep hoping to find ‘Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles: Turtles in Time’ during one of the events.

Not much else happened last week and next week is all about getting back into the swing of things.  I go back to work on Tuesday and my son does the same with school.  It shouldn’t be too crazy a week, but the early wake ups are going to suck for a bit.  The week after will be mayhem with my son having All County Chorus rehearsals until 8 PM and then he gets to tackle homework.  Praying that he doesn’t have any tests that week, but most of his classes either finished a unit before the break or will be finishing it next week.  2024 is not starting off kind and gentle.

Honestly, the entire month of January is looking to be insane.  All County, ‘life event’ appointments, medical appointments, and whatever usually comes with the work/school life.  This is making me think that I shouldn’t even try to tackle Darwin & the Joy Path until February.  Maybe use my weekends to edit Darwin & the Fate Bracelet, which I’ve already gone over twice.  This is a final run to tighten things up for when I publish later in the year and to make sure I remember stuff for teasers and posts.  I already had my alpha reader look it over, so I won’t be doing that again.  Not sure if there is anything else I can do with it.  Showed a few other people scenes and Darwin’s actions seem to throw people off because he’s not always logical, calm, and mature.  He isn’t a brave and stalwart hero.  Darwin is a halfling who just got his magic and doesn’t always think things through.  Really hoping people like him when he debuts.  Lots of room for growth.

I did finish watching ‘Almost Paradise’, ‘Blue Eye Samurai’, and ‘Legend of Vox Machina’.  Got through the newest ‘Invincible’ episodes too.  First two shows were okay, but I kept losing interest and had to take a break.  The other two were a lot of fun.  Surprised by how much I loved ‘Legend of Vox Machina’, but it is based off a DnD game.  Nice to see someone succeed with what I attempted to do with Legends of Windemere.  Guess they did have the web series on it first.  Oh well, that didn’t exist when I donned the guise of Luke Callindor once or twice a week.

So, what are the goals for the week?

  1. Enjoy New Year’s Eve with my son.
  2. Put together Lego sets.
  3. Start editing Darwin & the Fate Bracelet.
  4. Finish February blog posts.
  5. Start March blog posts.
  6. Biking
  7. Read the ‘Fairy Tail’ volumes I took out before they’re due.
  8. Tinker with ‘Phi Beta Files’ when I need a break from editing.
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