Not really sure where to even start here. I’m exhausted and stressed. If last weekend proved anything, I can’t really go into how things work around here. Otherwise, I get a lecture/debate on this side of the machine. Let’s just say that it’s been ‘suggested’ that I watch what I say on here. So if I’m in a bad mood, I slap on a fake smile or disappear to avoid anyone thinking I dislike people and aspects of my life. The whole issue with Matzoh being one of the few things to eat in the house and setting off my IBS hasn’t helped me.
I’m really not feeling social by any stretch of the imagination. This sucks because the weather is good and my son can play outside. I don’t think people realize that by always leaving me in charge of him, things pile up. So when a family outing is about to take place or he’s going to have a new experience, I’m forced to decide between work and son. This is a shitty situation to put someone in. I can’t even get writing done because by the time I get to a computer, I have tons of emails to sift through. Mostly I’ve been deleting them this week because I’m simply not in the mood for things. Hell, I might be burning out on blogging and human interaction entirely at this point.
All I want to do is write, but I don’t even know what to work on now. I keep saying Book 8 will be started. Probably Wednesday as I take Tuesday as an attempt to recover some energy. History teaches me that I’ll come out worse than I started, but what the hell. Yet part of me wants to go over Book 5 and another part wants to focus more on getting the characters of another series written up. You know, that main goal of my 3 week ‘vacation’ that is nowhere near being completed. I might finish the heroes and a few villains if I use Tuesday.
This has really been nothing more than a downer post, but it shouldn’t be a surprise for anyone who knows certain aspects of my situation. Anyway, I’ll see if I can piece together a few goals:
- Start writing The Merchant of Nevra Coil.
- Design a few characters for The Elysium Saga.
- Get off the Passover diet of glorified crackers that make my intestines cry.
- Keep eye out for packages.
- Try to get more into blog commenting.