Superman’s Fortress of Solitude
Not really sure how to start this one, so I’ll just say it: I nearly walked away from WordPress, writing, and everything this morning. I’ve spent the last month fighting to get work done and only keeping up. I barely even caught up since I don’t comment as much as I used to. Most of the time, I simply don’t know what to say because I’m so horribly burnt out or depressed.
The truth is that I’m exhausted and I thought this post out in my head while pushing my son on the swing. Now, I’m here and drained. I’ve recently learned that my parents and some of their friends read this blog, so this led to a recent discussion about the ‘bad stuff’ of social media. This is the talk that you reserve for your teenage daughter when you find that she’s posted underwear shots of herself on Facebook. Basically, I’ve painted some people in a bad light and they’re annoyed. Yet, what am I really supposed to do? Make up excuses for why I’m posting in a bad mood and not admit that my family pisses me off a lot? Not reveal that I’m on a December deadline to ‘succeed’ in writing? What about the fact that my son being home seemed to eliminate my nights and weekends too even after the therapists said I should be given those times to work? You see why it’s all built up to a level of ‘Fuck it all’. This concludes the whining part of the post. Possibly.
Now due to the month of jack shit getting done, I’m left with a priority rearranging. I need to hand edit books 4 and 5 of Legends of Windemere. I need to find guest blogs and interviews. I need to edit Legends of Windemere: Allure of the Gypsies before the Halloween debut, which requires late nights. This will make the 6 AM wake-ups rough and painful. Honestly, I’m not even sure of the quality of what I’ve written this year because of the chaotic mess that is my home life. So the following will happen:
- I will make one big post a day or 3 poetry posts a day. These will be scheduled the night before.
- Exceptions to #1 will be a theme day (Sari may get a day soon) or building hype for the next book. It’s a loose rule.
- I will still reblog posts to help people promote projects and such.
- I will try to make 1 post on the CSB every few days.
- I won’t be commenting as much as I used to, but I think that’s dropped off a lot due to the month of jack shit getting done.
- I will be working to respond to comments relatively quickly.
I started this blog to promote my writing, so I refuse to leave. I also can’t let it replace my writing when I have limited time. So, I won’t be as prolific here. I’ll be social, but I really need to focus on Windemere to get stuff done.
