There’s no other way to describe it because my week ended with me feeling like my chest was stuck in a vise. Drama in every direction. This is coming off a break, so I might have had my defenses down. Still, I didn’t expect to get so wrecked that every night was a struggle to stay awake long enough to get a little me time. I wasn’t always successful, which resulted in me falling asleep and then waking up earlier. That continued the cycle, but I got to sleep in a bit this morning.
Most of what happened can’t be talked about here. Just a combination of getting back to work, my son getting back to school, interacting with people, and a sense of feeling both lost and forgotten. Beyond work, there wasn’t much in the way of socialization even last weekend because things didn’t work out that way. I couldn’t even tell you what I did beyond laundry too. Everything is a blur from the stress. Before anyone suggests relaxing, I did that and it seems to only tee me up for a blow to the head. Pretty sure this is where many people will stop reading and jump to the comments too.
Do I Need to Use a Dragon? (Fantasy Writing Tips) is in limbo for now. I’ve been unable to find any beta readers or an artist to do both the cover and a few inserts. Tried my best, but nothing happened and I have to barrel forward with both work and getting War of Nytefall: Savagery ready for an April release. Need to do the blurb and a final editing run on that, which might start this week. Things are definitely getting more difficult since I can barely keep myself afloat on the blog and writing. Doubt the will change any decade soon. I think that realization added to the stress because I have no idea what to do with Do I Need to Use a Dragon? and I refuse to put it on the blog for free. I spent 2 . . . 3 years working on that one during lunch breaks, free periods, and whenever I had some extra time. So, it’s on the shelf until I can get beta readers and an artist. Those internal pictures are the reason why I can’t go to 99designs even though that isn’t always the best option either.
The only other thing I did was outlining, which led to the completion of a short story collection set up. Realized I had enough space in the notebook to squeeze in a 6 book spin-off series of a Windemere character that was influenced by James Bond. Not a huge amount of core characters there and I think I’m only going to do 14 chapters per book to keep things simple. Much of it depends on how he comes off in the series he debuts in since he wields a six-shooter. Every time I mention him, people start struggling to explain how the technology can be abused and why it shouldn’t exist. They bring up methods to undo it that go against the Windemere rules, so it’s almost like the appearance of a gun in fantasy triggers something in people. It’s weird and has me nervous about using him in general, but he’s a character that I’ve been tinkering with since high school. I think he’ll work out fine.
Well . . . I don’t really have anything else to talk about since last week was all work, little play, and massive stress. Think seeing politics appear from corners that I never expected them caused me to pull back too. Watched another live-action ‘Rurouni Kenshin’ movie and an anime called ‘Vandread’. First thing was fun and I learned right afterwards that they’re making two more, so watching the third doesn’t mean it’s the end. The anime was . . . eh. Really old-school and corny, so I faded in and out. Oh, and I watched ‘Murder Princess’ too, which was only 6 episodes, but fun and to the point. Haven’t picked out another series yet either. I might just go down the queued list, which means it will be ‘Scrapped Princess’ and I’ll go through the motions. Not touching any major outlining until I’m out of this funk, so there may be some anime sacrifices to my mood.
Next week is all work and maybe some play. Really need a haircut. I have my son for part of the week too, so I won’t attempt anything big while he’s here. If anything, I’ll start editing War of Nytefall: Savagery for neatness and typos. That might take me a week and a half, which puts it in perfect position for release in April. Yeah, I’m not that interesting right now.
Goals of the week:
- Finish scheduling April posts. Any May topics?
- Outline series
- Final edit for War of Nytefall: Savagery
- Blurb too
- Puzzle time to help relax