Think I might be the goalie in this scenario. At least this week went smoother than previous ones. Work was busy, but not as stressful. Still some kinks to iron out of a couple systems. Noticed last week that nobody really cares about this stuff since I can’t go into details. So . . . moving on.
My son comes back tonight and he’s been having a rough time with middle school. For those that need a refresher, he’s high-functioning autistic and has trouble with transitions. That means, he needs to get used to a new school, new classmates, new expectations, and being mainstreamed because he’s smart enough to do it. Add Covid-induced changes to schedules and him bouncing between my place and his mom’s to make things extra difficult. I keep wishing things will go back to some level of normal because it feels really unfair that he has extra challenges on top of what he would usually go through when it comes to middle school. My goal for this week is to try and get him into a better emotional position and hope it sticks. I have some ideas that will help him remain calm throughout the day, so fingers crossed.
That’s really the thing that wore me down the most. I feel helpless that he’s going through this and I’m not by his side. Not only at school, but when this happens and he’s with his mom. I get brought in after the fact and have absolutely no bearing on the situation since decisions have been made. For years, I was with him through it all even when I was working and now I’m practically sidelined. This isn’t a situation where I should cast him into the deep end like others have suggested. Autistic kids don’t always do well because they might not realize what is going on. They know something is different and weird and uncomfortable. Anxiety is a major problem for people on the spectrum. To add to that is plain wrong.
In other news, there has been an addition to the family. Not by me. This happened a few weeks ago and I never asked if I could talk about it. Still haven’t, so I’m keeping it vague even though I really want to mention it.
Writing did happen like I’d hoped. I probably had more progress than I realized, but I forgot about a few other things going on. I did manage to get 3 chapters done of War of Nytefall: Eulogy and I might use today to get through most of 4. It’s a difficult decision because I’m at the climax of the entire series. To stop one section away from the end of an amazing chapter would drive me nuts until I could finish it on Friday night. Then, I’ll only have 2 chapters to go, which are the final battle and the wrap up. I would finish it all on November 1st. Not the end of October, but close enough. Gives me the rest of the year to work on other projects.
To be honest, War of Nytefall: Eulogy has been giving me trouble. I thought it was because of the high body count or that I was retiring another cast of characters. The reality is that this book runs differently than anything else I’ve written, including the rest of the series. There’s still action and humor, but not as much as I thought. This is actually turning into a mystery that I’ve been grooming for the entire series. Puzzle pieces have been dropped in place and things are drawn out in a way that Clyde can’t rampage his way to victory. This means I have more talking/non-action scenes. It’s a slower pace than I planned and depending more on emotion. Makes me nervous too because I don’t think I’ve tried a mystery before. It isn’t a true one and I didn’t mean to do it, but that’s how it seems to be coming out.
Watched Season 1 of ‘The Boys’ again to move into the second season. I forgot how great the characters are. I don’t mean good, but just well acted. Billy Butcher and Homelander manage to steal every scene that they’re in for me. To be fair, I’ve always been a big fan of Karl Urban and keep hoping he’ll get a ‘Judge Dredd’ series or sequel. Antony Starr is just amazing as Homelander. I have to stop whatever I’m doing when he gets going because the character comes off strong, weak, and unstable all in the same scene. Heard things are better in Season 2, which I’m starting tonight. Not sure what I’ll jump into after that though. Probably another anime.
With my son back next week, I’m going to focusing entirely on work and parenting. I will probably finish the January posts, except for the 2020 Top 5. Everything will depend on how he does with school and behavior. If I have to drop all of the other non-work stuff to focus all I have on him then I’ll do it in a heartbeat. Looks like I’m going back to that, so I’ll cut it off now. If I do any writing, it’ll be outlining ‘Ruins of the Zodiac Gods’ during breaks at school. This is a big thorn in my side and has been for years, so it’s daunting to tackle it for good. Last time I posted about it, I didn’t really walk away with a clearer head, so we’ll see what happens.
Goals of the week:
- January blog posts.
- ‘Ruins of the Zodiac Gods’ outline.
- Try the new Chicken and Burger place.
- Carve out one night to write the final section of War of Nytefall: Eulogy chapter 14.
- Watch ‘The Boys’ Season 2.
- Start a new puzzle.
- Sleep when I can.
- Avoid political fights on Facebook.