The last week was a bit too crazy for me to get any editing done. Not for lack of trying since I did spend at least 2 hours overall staring at chapter 7 of Darwin & the Beast Collector. I shouldn’t be upset about this considering I’m writing this at 10 PM on Friday and barely keeping my eyes open. Just plain exhausting.
Part of the reason is that work was busy and the time afterwards wasn’t much better. My son had a bunch of tests that he needed help studying for. Promised to fit some Pokemon Go in there too. This resulted in ‘me time’ starting at 9:30 and ending around 10, which isn’t much. Even last weekend felt too rough due to things forcing me to spend most of my time out of the house. By the time I got home, I was too drained to do more than put on ‘Brooklyn 99’ and tinker with a jigsaw puzzle. Barely managed to pull those things off too, so it was definitely a week.
One reason for the exhaustion and mayhem was the machinations of other people, which I can’t get into here. There was one day where a decision was made that threw my schedule off and forced me to run errands in a downpour. Got really soaked, which gave me a chill for the rest of the week. I tried to squeeze in some biking too and that may have contributed to my overall fatigue. On the other hand, it may have helped me get slightly better sleep because it was a healthy way to use energy.
Another issue I had this week was the wind coming back. I know I’ve talked about this a bunch, but it was really bad. The previous week was pretty good and the weather was warming up. It was nice when I went out for a day of Pokemon Go last Saturday until midafternoon. Heard a howl and was immediately struck by a wind that must have dropped the temp by 15-20 degrees within 30 minutes. It was so sudden that it actually hurt. Things warmed up again a few days later, which I fell for and went out to the park after work on Thursday only to be smacked by the wind coming back. It’s still around until Monday, but I’m scared to drop my guard.
Can’t say I was entirely useless this week. I managed to get a bunch of May posts scheduled since I didn’t have time for anything bigger. There was a moment where I figured out a plot point for Darwin & the Beast Collector . . . And promptly forgot about it because I was driving at the time. Chalking it all up to being one of those weeks where I simply needed to get to the end of it. Surprised how drained I feel right now too because I haven’t been this tired in a while. Head is almost swimming as I try to write this up.
Next week isn’t going to be very exciting since there are multiple appointments on top of work and parenting. I’m going to try to get some editing in, but that won’t be easy given how things are spread out. Yeah, there’s a Pokemon Go event, but it’s something I can do at my leisure and won’t take all day. That means I can participate for an hour or two then head home to edit. It’s probably a good thing that I’m not able to rush into editing since that means I won’t finish it before the end of the school year. Starting a new book before July would be a test of frustration since my time is so limited.
I guess my head isn’t on straight much either. Keep having bouts of a sensation that I can’t put my finger on. Usually triggers old memories like from college, late high school, and even a bit of Florida. Nothing with people so much as places that come with smells, tastes, and sounds. I can’t figure out what’s triggering the memories to return or put a finger on how they make me feel. A few times I’m on the verge of tearing up while other times I’m left relaxed. As much as I want to call this nostalgia, I don’t think that’s the correct term for this. All I know is that I drop my guard, usually when falling asleep, and my brain time travels to the past. Weird and a little disconcerting. Damn brain never goes back to any of my old story ideas too.
So, what are the goals of the week?
- Edit more of Darwin & the Beast Collector.
- Get better sleep.
- Help son with studying.
- Start new jigsaw puzzle.
- Take advantage of the warmer weather.
- Do more May posts when possible.
- Drive carefully.




Not surprised that with your level of tiredness, your brain travels to the past. I try to make a list of things I have to do the next day right when I’m ready to fall asleep and my mind does that too. Maybe the ‘old memory’ brain circuits are the easiest to activate.
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I’m worried that my fatigue is permanent too. Doesn’t help that I haven’t had a truly restful weekend since mid-February if even then. Starting to wonder if this is decimating my health.
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It could be. You need to take some things off of your to-do list to give yourself time for real rest. If that’s possible.
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Sadly it’s not possible. Hoping the time change giving me more daylight helps.
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Reading this post is like Deja vu for me. I’ll try to update later today, but missed last week completely. My brain drifts to past events too, usually at bedtime. I wonder if current America has us retreating to a time that was more palatable.
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Maybe, but my brain started doing this at 40. It’s becoming more common and potent lately.
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Fatigue does all kinds of things to the body. I hope you can get some rest next week.
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Thanks. Next week is our ‘Battle of the Classes’ week, so I’m not holding my breath. I’m steeling myself for an endurance test. On the plus side, warmer weather and more sunlight means I can get some fresh air before and after work.
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Improved weather is a good thing for sure.
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The strange sensations thing does sound alarming. I hope you can follow up on that and figure out what’s happening.
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It’s stress and anxiety. Enough to give me physical symptoms.
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Your brain does exactly what the rest of us experience; you just put it into readable, understandable words. The wind nearly blew over children on the playground. I’ll take wind over ice.
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Not sure if I prefer wind or ice. With ice, it’s easier to rationalize staying inside. You’re not expected to go out unless an emergency occurs. Wind isn’t seen as an excuse unless hurricane or tornado strength.
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Well said.
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