This week was totally berserk. Every day had a twist that turned all plans on their heads and made me wondering what was coming next. Some of these incidents were caused by Covid-19, which I think is getting worse around here. At least, it feels that way because I hear about cases more often. Nothing has been shut down and everything is supposedly under control. Still, it leaves me wondering if New York is heading for another ‘lockdown’ or whatever that was earlier in the year. I don’t believe it will be as strict as before, but it really depends on how widespread the idiots are and how many take risks that turn out to be wrong choices. All I know for sure is that the last month of 2020 isn’t going to be any less stressful than the previous 11.
Thanksgiving came and went for me. Since we couldn’t have guests and my son was with his mom, it was just me and my parents. Meatloaf, potatoes, and squash straws were the feast. We had a real Thanksgiving dinner on Friday when my son was with us. Chicken, rolls, cornbread stuffing, green beans, yams, pumpkin pie, and apple pie. Great menu and my son, who has been having food issues since September, did an amazing job. He tried everything except one that was a failure earlier in the week and he ran out of room for the yams. Of course, the room was made for the pies. We got to do a little video chat with a new member of the family. Don’t think I have permission to announce anything beyond that here. It was fun, but a face-to-face meeting is going to be tough given the times we live in.
Speaking of meetings, I got to hang out with some old friends for a night. The high school crew doesn’t get together very often since we’re scattered. It really did remind me of old times since it was supposed to be an early night, but we chatted outside until after midnight. Oops. The good weather didn’t help because you usually can’t be comfortable outside in late November for so long. I think this was something I really needed this week because of the earlier chaos. In fact, this year has really taken a toll on my nerves, self-esteem, goals, and overall mental health. My psyche is a brutalized punching bag that is still dangling from the chain. Getting together with friends gave me a boost and helped forget my inner misery for a while.
Writing life saw some progress . . . I think. Do I Need to Use a Dragon? is my focus right now. I’ve finished 13 of 70 sections. Hoping to get another 3-4 done today, but I’ll be happy with 2-3. This project keeps catching me by surprise. I genuinely thought that I could use all of my notes to crank out sections and finish this with ease. Then, I ran into a problems. My anxiety is giving me issues on this. I never realized how much comfort I took from hiding behind characters. This is all me and the style of delivery is my own voice. I’m not trying to sound like a professor or an intellectual. It’s me as if I’m sitting on the other side of a table from the reader. There are snacks and drinks between us. The casualness may be a comfort for those reading it, but I’m noticing that I feel completely exposed. So, I need breaks more often than I planned. This has to be the most draining project I’ve ever tackled and it’s showing. I always thought that I could write sections at night after my son goes to sleep, but I might not be able to do that. Then again, I’m finding it easier to stop a section and come back to it later. We’ll see what happens as this week progresses.
I’m still toying with the idea of dropping all of my books to 99 cents in early December and keeping them there. Some people have understood the idea because I need exposure and sales more than money. Maybe asking for $2.99 for one book is too much since I’m a nobody and we aren’t living in great economic times. I was always told to price myself at what I think I’m worth, but ego shouldn’t be the only guide. I have to consider if I want money or readers as well as if people are going to be willing to take a chance on an indie author for $2.99. That’s really what I still am after all these years. I’m a risky investment instead of a sure bet when it comes to entertainment.
Since I keep talking about what I’m watching, I’ll keep that trend going. I got through the biggest storyline of ‘Yu Yu Hakusho’, which is an older anime. This would be the Dark Tournament story arc, which brought me to about halfway through the entire series. I needed a break and a trusted friend mentioned ‘Schitt’s Creek’. Yeah, I’m 5 years too late to jump on the bandwagon, but that’s how I roll. I never paid it much attention even though it has some actors that I always enjoy. Since I was barely able to function after the late night hangout due to being older than I used to be, I tried a few episodes . . . and ended up in Season 2 before I knew it. Obviously, I really like it and being able to watch the whole series is a good thing. I’m probably going to get into or through Season 3 by the end of the week.
This coming week is looking to be rather tame compared to the last one. Never know these days, so I won’t put money on that. I’m going to stay the course on this week. I have my son, so I want to spend a lot of time with him. That’s what this week is about, so any writing I do will be a bonus.
Goals of the week:
- Time with son.
- Writing if I can.
- Watch more ‘Schitt’s Creek’.
- Puzzle time if I need it.
- Make a decision on the price drop.
- Work on ‘Ruins of Zodiac Gods’ outlines when I have a break at work.
- Write the mental health post for next Sunday. Jumping between poem or short post.