Alone
No voices, but my own
The chaos dies
Giving me my time
Thoughts bubble
As my mind churn
Bringing peace
Alone
My voice echoing
Chaos killed by dull
Forcing time upon me
Emotions bubble
Making my heart churn
Bringing loneliness
Alone
What we want
And half us fear
Time with our thoughts
To dwell and sort
Finding oursevles
While feeling lost
About Charles Yallowitz
Charles E. Yallowitz was born, raised, and educated in New York. Then he spent a few years in Florida, realized his fear of alligators, and moved back to the Empire State. When he isn't working hard on his epic fantasy stories, Charles can be found cooking or going on whatever adventure his son has planned for the day. 'Legends of Windemere' is his first series, but it certainly won't be his last.
Love this! So very true, we long to be alone, yet fear being alone…what odd creatures we are!
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It’s definitely strange. We’re social creatures, but too much of socialization drives some of us crazy. Take that away and it isn’t much better. All about balance, I guess.
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Very true and I guess the balance lesson is one most of us do not perfect very well. After all too much of anything food, medicine, alcohol…the list goes on is not good for us and yet the lack of it can make us sick…I guess that is the plight of our species…the lack of the perfection of balance!
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I keep thinking about how easy it is for us to lose equilibrium. We’re a surprisingly fragile species.
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And yet we think we are on the top of the food chain…when quite possibly we are closer to the bottom then we believe. Definitely a conundrum!
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It’s all ego. I wouldn’t say we’re at the bottom. Probably at the bottom of the predator part of it, but not below a lot of creatures.
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I think we are somewhere in the middle, def towards the bottom of the predator scale, but in other ways towards the middle, since we all know there are several animals that far surpass us in multiple skills!
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Skills, yes. Though food chains tend to go exclusively for who eats who. At least that’s what I was taught. It’s hard to tell though because we have tools to give us an edge.
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Sometimes, it’s required to restore the balance. Too many voices, sometimes. Nicely said, Charles.
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True. Though, there are times when we escape the voices for solitude and realize that it isn’t what we want. Happens to me a few times. I do writing at night when everyone is asleep and there are a few nights where I miss human contact. Means I get nothing done.
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Hehe. I never have that problem. I mean, don’t get me wrong; I very much enjoy being with my lady all day every day, but I’ve always been used to being alone. Being without human contact is almost like breathing to me, at times. Though Blu is tempering that some. I know what you mean, I just can’t say I’ve ever been there.
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There have been very few moments in my life where I had privacy. No lock on the bedroom door when I was younger, college roommates, housemates, etc. So, I think I’m so used to having another human being in the general vicinity that I don’t know how to operate without that.
It’s ridiculous too because when they’re all awake, I feel like they’re under foot. Amazing what humans get used to and subconsciously adopt as the norm.
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I guess loneliness and peace go hand in hand.. in order to find peace, we look for solitude and when we gain it, we may feel at peace but a little while later, we’d come to seek some contact because we are emotional creatures who would go astray… may go mad if left to himself.
When the British used to rule half the world, loneliness was their cruelest punishment for those who continued to fight against their reign.
So, I think there must be a blend of the two.. we must denote some of the time for ourselves in solitude.
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Both are needed in moderation to balance each other?
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I’m not sure one feels lonely when alone or peaceful. Perhaps different. As you say – in a comment response here – some have seldom experienced being alone…
Ellespeth
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I don’t know. Those feel like the two options. It’s either a sense of resting calm or wishing someone was there. It could just be feeling off because of a sudden transition from noise to silence.
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I admire your final two lines Charles – a perfectly counterintuitive denouement.
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Thanks.
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Reblogged this on Dean'z Doodlez.
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I love this poem. You are right, many times we long to be alone, but at the same time are afraid to be alone. What a conundrum. 🙂
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We’re social creatures with social anxiety?
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I have the desire to be alone, to work alone, to have “me” time without other people clamoring for my attention. My fear is to wake up alone, to suddenly find that I have no friends, no companionship because I insisted so much on being alone.
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That’s the tricky part. If pestered enough, a person can start sabotaging relationships to cut people out. By the time they get to be alone, it’s because they cut themselves off.
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Exactly. Fortunately I have a few friends who know me well enough to “be there” even if it’s months between our dates. But I try to not take them for granted and to be there for them even when I’m not in a social mood.
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I have a few like that too. All you really need some times is a tight circle of a few friends.
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