Heard this song on Pandora yesterday morning during my shower. Really caught my attention. Been a while since a new song grabbed me like this.
Anyway, this week didn’t see much in the way of writing or editing. Might have found time to get a few pages of Darwin & the Fate Bracelet taken care of. Hoping to fix that this weekend with a binge. Next week might work out too since it’s midterms week. Students go home at 12:30, which means I have 2 hours of sitting around. I can get a little editing done if I’m not doing anything else. Fingers crossed, but I believe I’ve made my decision to edit the first 5 Darwin books before I start writing the 6th. Too much is going on and I may need a refresher. Should help with series continuity too.
I had my son last weekend, so there was a lot of Pokémon Go and Super Smash Bros. He has taken to playing the latter with us taking random characters. We team up against the computer. He says he’s loving this because I tend to get characters I’m not very good with and I’m fairly vocal when I play. So, the two of us start yelling at the computer and making exaggerated noises when things go wrong. With the weather being freezing and a little snowy, it was a nice way to get some energy going. Of course, I now how to do this whenever we have free time between homework and him going to his mother’s place. It might die down for a bit since he has midterms next week.
On the other side of things, I hadn’t been sleeping well due to stress. The ‘life event’ took up a lot of my time even when I wasn’t in scheduled meetings about it. This stressed me out to the point where my CPAP machine wasn’t making much of a dent in my apnea a few nights. The numbers are back to normal, but I’m clearly still off. Going to take the whole weekend to reset myself, but it won’t last for long. The ‘life event’ hits the final stage (at least I hope so) this coming week and then a lot of stuff changes. Some for the good and some for the not so good. When dealing a situation that requires negotiation, you can’t get everything that you want. It still stings even though it’s necessary. Doesn’t help that other situations have cropped up around the ‘life event’, which has my head spinning a bit. Just can’t catch a friggin’ break.
Nothing else really happened this week. It took me 3 days to watch an anime episode that was 23 minutes long. Exhaustion and distractions were the flavor of the week. I’m genuinely surprised I didn’t collapse and need a day off like last week. Friday was definitely touch and go for a while. A 2-hour delay on Wednesday might have helped me a bit since I could rest up after dropping my son off at school. Got to bike and run errands in the morning instead of doing it late after the final ‘life event’ meeting. Not that I wasn’t bombarded by texts nearly every day too. Will next week be different? No clue, but I’m hoping it is.
Wish there was more to talk about it, but this feels like another week absorbed by the ‘life event’. That should end soon, but I don’t know how long it will take me to recover. I feel like every time I drop my guard, my imagination goes into doom spiraling about my life instead of writing stories. I miss the version of myself that could sit down and escape reality with my writing. Haven’t been that way in years because things always seem to be dire and stressful. The fact that I’m struggling to edit isn’t a good sign. My plan is to fix that this weekend though. I say that all the time though. Not an author of my word since I falter all the time. Maybe I’ll get back to what I was one day.
Goals of the week?
- Edit Darwin & the Fate Bracelet
- Help son study for midterms when he is here.
- ‘Life event’!
- Finish watching ‘Flame of Recca’ and start the old ‘Highlander’ series.
- Do more or complete the March blog posts.
- Relax?
- Replace CPAP parts without breaking the machine or getting it stuck to my face.
- Order boneless wings for lunch today because it’s been a while.
Legends of Windemere 
I can only hope you will be able to figure out a way back to your old author self. The games with your son sound like so much fun.
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Maybe one day. I think winter is the worst too. So many diseases bouncing around schools. It’s too cold to think straight. Adding stress to that mix doesn’t help.
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I think you are right about the cold weather. Saps the strength too.
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Those family years demand a lot of time. It does tone down eventually, but then you kind of miss it.
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18 years of chaos then a remaining lifetime of semi-order. That has to be disorienting.
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Always a good idea to read back through what you’ve written. There could be seeds you planted that you forgot about. Then later you realize you never followed up on them.
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True. I’m noticing a few things I didn’t carry over too. So, I’m needing to note how, why, and when they got eliminated.
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Darwin is pretty flaky, so I guess you could bring some of them back in and have him go “oh yeah, that! oops”
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I’m worried that would make him come off as too flaky. That or it’ll be overused by the time it becomes a major plot point. Not sure if flakiness can be overdone. The big thing is that there used to be a scent that appeared with his spells. I forgot about that. Think I might have him say he doesn’t like the smell and that’s the end of it.
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I am sure you will be back to yourself soon. Best wishes, Michael
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Thanks. I hope so.
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It’s been a long time since I watched Flame of Recca even though I never saw the whole series. Sorry to hear how there’s still a lot of stress going on with the life event and whatnot.
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Stress is life! I think. I do worry that my body is fueled entirely by stress, so relaxing will lead to system collapse. That’s a thing, right?
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I have felt that way multiple times. Sometimes it feels weird when I actually have time and space to relax instead of working or doing something important. I wouldn’t be surprised if that was a thing, but I don’t know if there’s a specific term.
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We should make a term. I vote for ‘Stress Zombie’.
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That term makes sense. It’s like one doesn’t feel alive unless one is stressed and it feels unnatural when one actually has a good amount of free time to unwind. I’ll credit you if/when I use that term.
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Go for it.
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I do hope the final stage of the life event gives you an ending to the stress it has caused you.
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Not looking like all the stress will be gone. Hard to tell what the aftermath will be too. It’s not really in my hands.
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Fingers crossed.
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Definitely place your emphasis on number 6!
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That’s the one I’m going to have the hardest time achieving. Things might be crazy until winter break in late February.
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Give it your best – carve out just a little bit of time each day!
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