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(The joy of the daily grin? Probably closer to trying to solve a problem without changing my tactics. Another option is that I wrote it when I felt like I was in a rut and not gaining anything for my struggles. That was happening a lot in the earlier days of the writing/publishing period.)
Going around again
Following these steps
As if the result will change
I have lost count
Of my attempts
I make the motions
And say the words
That I have said before
Crudely etched upon my mind
Never to be changed
Paltry results
Are my work’s rewards
Undone by other failings
That I could not stop
Yet I still take the blame
I return home
A vast hollow growing
Underneath my skin
Swallowing all my yens
Until I zombie through my day
Legends of Windemere 
I can relate to this! I have a new publishing journey – a series this time – ahead of me, and at the moment it looks like a massive mountain to climb, strewn with obstacles.
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Publishing always seems to be the easiest part. Promoting is major hurdle. One with spikes and fire.
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I think you captured the Indie author angst well, Charles.
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Thanks.
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😊
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Definitely relatable for creative types since I’ve been struggling with a lot of things I want to work on outside of my job. I even felt that way with my language learning endeavors because part of me feels like I should’ve been more fluent by now despite having classes every week and using apps and other programs on the side to learn.
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I think this can be felt in many situations. Not just artistic endeavors.
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I’m well aware of that and I felt that in different ways.
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Sometimes it’s definitely hard to see beyond a dark moment.
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Story of my year.
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The poem makes me think of something that I do on the daily, and it is use / let my inner voice self-sabotage me, instead of encourage me.
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Inner voices really are jerks most days.
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