Poetry Day: Futility

Posted on November 9, 2023 by Charles Yallowitz

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(The joy of the daily grin?  Probably closer to trying to solve a problem without changing my tactics.  Another option is that I wrote it when I felt like I was in a rut and not gaining anything for my struggles.  That was happening a lot in the earlier days of the writing/publishing period.)

Going around again
Following these steps
As if the result will change
I have lost count
Of my attempts

 

I make the motions
And say the words
That I have said before
Crudely etched upon my mind
Never to be changed

 

Paltry results
Are my work’s rewards
Undone by other failings
That I could not stop
Yet I still take the blame

 

I return home
A vast hollow growing
Underneath my skin
Swallowing all my yens
Until I zombie through my day

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About Charles Yallowitz

Charles E. Yallowitz was born, raised, and educated in New York. Then he spent a few years in Florida, realized his fear of alligators, and moved back to the Empire State. When he isn't working hard on his epic fantasy stories, Charles can be found cooking or going on whatever adventure his son has planned for the day. 'Legends of Windemere' is his first series, but it certainly won't be his last.
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12 Responses to Poetry Day: Futility

  1. annabellefranklinauthor's avatar annabellefranklinauthor says:
    November 9, 2023 at 10:07 am

    I can relate to this! I have a new publishing journey – a series this time – ahead of me, and at the moment it looks like a massive mountain to climb, strewn with obstacles.

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  2. John W. Howell's avatar John W. Howell says:
    November 9, 2023 at 10:09 am

    I think you captured the Indie author angst well, Charles.

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  3. ospreyshire's avatar ospreyshire says:
    November 9, 2023 at 4:20 pm

    Definitely relatable for creative types since I’ve been struggling with a lot of things I want to work on outside of my job. I even felt that way with my language learning endeavors because part of me feels like I should’ve been more fluent by now despite having classes every week and using apps and other programs on the side to learn.

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  4. DebyFredericks's avatar DebyFredericks says:
    November 9, 2023 at 9:39 pm

    Sometimes it’s definitely hard to see beyond a dark moment.

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  5. Oloriel's avatar Oloriel says:
    November 10, 2023 at 7:20 am

    The poem makes me think of something that I do on the daily, and it is use / let my inner voice self-sabotage me, instead of encourage me.

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