A life of peace
Only in my dreams
Constant talking
Regardless of my mind
Yelling from afar
Barging into rooms mid-chat
There is no escape
Never a time
For me to hear my thoughts
And ease my levels down
Drums go ringing
Car alarms shouting
Birds shrieking
Cats screaming
Phone ringing
And never really for me
No refuge for my nerves
That pray for a soothing silence
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This week for coparenting classes, I had to fill out a form about how I take care of myself because the subject was self maintenance. Bad timing since I had a cold, a party last weekend, and several lunch outings this week. At least this negated the healthy eating part of things. Exercise failed too . . . and that’s what led me to this. I couldn’t really go anywhere this week without there being noise. Totally understandable at school, but it was an utter nightmare at home. Loud conversations were everywhere and I couldn’t rest in the open without being talked to. Makes me really stressed out for the 3-6 days that I don’t have a room . . . or a desk . . . or a TV . . . or a place for puzzles . . . or my books . . . I won’t have ANYTHING to help me relax or a spot for me to escape to if I need time to myself. That had me thinking about how I live a life of almost constant noise and it’s been that way since high school. The sounds I want to hear like music get drowned out by everything else, which sucks. Anyway, that’s the background of this poem. Wonder how many people can relate.
Definitely relate. Try a ‘bathroom break.’ 🙂
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I have. People talk and yell through the door.
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Ugh. Stay in there till they go away.
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My tinnitus masks practically everything else 😱
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Can’t tell if that’s good or bad.
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Neither can I, Charles 🤔
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I have tinnitus which mimics cicada mating calls so I’m never without noise. I think the talking would be bothersome. I know when our house is full a nice walk is welcome.
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I really want to take a walk. It’s just really cold.
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Yeah, I understand that too.
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I totally understand. I need my quiet time.
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It’s such a rarity.
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I totally understand. I need my quiet time to stay sane. Erm… Well, as close to it as I get. 😉 On the other hand, I also need the noises, because they’re my way of telling what’s going on with the things beyond the reach of my hands. So I’m often torn between being glad of the noise so I’m included in what’s happening in the world, and wanting it to go away. It’s one of the reasons I don’t go out much. Even at home though, if too many noises are coming at me at once it can get too much, and I need some time now and then with no noise at all sometimes.
I hope you can get some quiet time soon.
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I get that. They definitely have a silver lining there as long as they don’t get too noisy.
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