That Awkward Feeling of Done

Well . . . Legends of Windemere: Curse of the Dark Wind is done.  At least the first draft.  I focus on outlining, reading, resting, and everything else until . . . I don’t know.  I’m unsure if I should start in on Legends of Windemere: Sleeper of the Wildwood Fugue the last week in January or wait for February.  I’m at that strange point where I don’t want to leave Windemere, fear I wrote a bad story, wonder if I wrote a great story, thinking about other projects, and feeling simply lost.

I’m not ashamed to admit that I’ve laughed and cried within the last 5 minutes.  It isn’t even like this is new to me.  This is the 8th book I’ve ever completed if you count the two from high school.  10 if you go for Bestiary of Blatherhorn Vale and Catalysts.  It’s hitting me rather hard this time.  Prodigy of Rainbow Tower and Family of the Tri-Rune levels of oomph.  Maybe the high emotion of one of the final scenes or knowing the tragedy brewing in the next book has me on edge.

Anyway, it is done and . . . uh . . . I need a hug and the toddler’s out of the house.  So quiet in here now that I don’t have my characters running around in my head.  I mean, it’s like crypt level quiet . . . I think I’m going to go hide now.

About Charles Yallowitz

Charles E. Yallowitz was born, raised, and educated in New York. Then he spent a few years in Florida, realized his fear of alligators, and moved back to the Empire State. When he isn't working hard on his epic fantasy stories, Charles can be found cooking or going on whatever adventure his son has planned for the day. 'Legends of Windemere' is his first series, but it certainly won't be his last.
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41 Responses to That Awkward Feeling of Done

  1. Congratulations, Charles – I hope you find that hug! 🙂

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  2. Congrats on finishing the first draft!

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  3. It really is a a strange empty feeling isn’t it finishing a book? Your characters seem to stay with you for quite a while. Now you have the gruelling task of editing your novel looming ahead of you, which I don’t know about you, but I personally always dread. Well done and good luck with your next project.

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  4. Congratulations! And this from a non-fiction writer. };-)>

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    • Thanks. Do non-fiction writers get this type of feeling? I can imagine it being strange when all your research is done after delving into something for so long.

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      • It was a relief when I finished the first draft in January 2013. Three years of research (part time) and planning preceded this. A definite milestone. But then the manuscript underwent at least a dozen test reader review and enhancement cycles, each iteration seeing the manuscript stronger than the preceding one.

        I had to have the manuscript sufficiently refined before self-publishing it, as I know the book will be attacked due to its controversial nature.

        But it was a huge relief getting that first draft done. You put everything you have emotionally into the first draft, and feel drained for a bit after getting there. A good drained, but drained nonetheless.

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      • Exactly. Nothing wrong with controversial nature sometimes. It means people will talk about it.

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      • Charles,

        Yes, controversy sells. I suspect they’ll be talking about this book (which Linda G Hill has read) and its sequel for a very long time. I’ve already begun the writing and additional research for the sequel, but I suspect the marketing of Book One is going to limit my spare time to write.

        The trials and tribulations of self-publishing.

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      • It definitely takes up a lot of time, but the marketing part eases as time moves on. I’m usually focused mostly on that for the first 2-3 weeks of a debut.

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      • Appreciate the benefit of your experience, Charles. Thank you.

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  5. justmoo33 says:

    A lie down in a dark room is recommended – well done 🙂

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  6. twixie13 says:

    Congrats on finishing the first draft! I know all too well that feeling of completion. Best of luck when the time comes to edit!

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  7. sknicholls says:

    {{{{HUGS}}}} The best I can offer is a cyber hug, and a “Good Job!.” Congratulations. Take a week to relax and do nothing….except play with the toddler, cook for the wife, and read.

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  8. Congratulations Charles, sounds like you need a little bit of a break.

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  9. *Hugs*
    Great job on finishing yet another book! That’s awesome! You’re amazing! 🙂

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  10. Enjoy that awkwardness and lock your to-do list in the attic for a day or two. 🙂

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  11. Olivia Stocum says:

    I feel your pain, as I do my final read through of Moonstone. I feel especially connected to this couple, and it kills me to leave them.

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  12. Congrats on your draft 🙂 I send to you one virtual hug!

    I remember how I felt when I finished the first draft of Imminent Danger. I just kind of sat there, staring at the words “The End”, and thought to myself, “Now what?” I ended up almost immediately re-reading it — not something writers advise you do, but hey, I’m just zany like that 🙂

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    • I usually jumped right into editing because I figured it was fresh in my mind. I’m having someone else read it over before I do it again this time. I think the challenge right now is to relax when I have the outline for book 7 sitting in plain sight. I’ve already grabbed it to read over and alter. I’m really dreading the final book of this series. I fear I’ll become inconsolable for a week.

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      • Hmm … a perfectly legitimate fear, my friend. Perhaps you might console yourself by remembering that now you get to move on to new and exciting writing opportunities? And you could always hop back into the Windemere universe and do some short stories or something to that effect — maybe release an encyclopedia of the world? Fantasy authors love doing that 🙂

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      • Thankfully, I still have 9 books of this series to write. So this is more of a ‘recharge before returning’ period. Though, I probably won’t leave Windemere at all. Every series I have planned takes place in there. One might not.

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  13. tyroper says:

    Hang in there man! You always give me words of encouragement. I saw this quote today.
    https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/358562-the-worst-enemy-to-creativity-is-self-doubt. You’re very creative, don’t doubt yourself. It is going to be a great book.

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  15. sending a hug, pal. congratulations on your achievement, Charles. sincere best wishes

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