I’m sitting here with my notebook on my right and my laptop on my lap.  To my left is nothing worth noting.  Though that shoe is an odd shade of red.  Anyway, I’m working on villains for one of my other series and I took a break to go through my reader and my Facebook.  I noticed an odd theme, which is that over half of the people I know are simply resting today after making great progress in their personal projects.

I made progress by finishing ‘The Pen Name’, but here I am still writing away.  So, I’m wondering what exactly is wrong with me.  A friend once said that I might not be one of the most amazing writers that he’s ever met, but I’m certainly one of the most prolific.  I didn’t know how to take it at the time because I focused on part one of that statement.  Since then I’ve been getting warnings from other people to not rush or to focus on one thing instead of several, but I keep plugging away.  I’ll be editing Family of the Tri-Rune this week, continuing the villain creation for Darwin’s series, and writing poems and posts for this website. Worst part of this is that it isn’t like I’m struggling with any of these because everything flows out of my head.  The few snags I run into get thought out within a few minutes of thinking and talking out loud.  Again, I’ve been starting to be made to feel like this constant writing is wrong for some reason.

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Is it even possible for me to take a vacation like everyone else?  I get antsy and irritable if I’m away from a pen and paper for more than a day.  In college, I got downright angry and aggressive if I went three days without writing anything creative.  It took my wife a few badly timed interruptions to figure this out and let me know about it.  This would be when I began always carrying a bag of notebooks, pens, pencils, and other writing materials wherever I went.  When I spent a year, unable to write anything because of work and life, I fell into the deepest, angriest depression that I’ve been in.  I’ve started to wonder if this is the sign of a problem.  So, what the hell is wrong with me that I can’t break away from a notebook for even a weekend?