Goal Post: Going to Keep My Hopes Low for a While

You know it’s been a week if I’m writing my goal post on Saturday instead of the night before.  It means things were crazy and I ended the week simply passing out at the first chance I got.  So, what went right?

I did finish writing Darwin & the Avenging Elf last Saturday amidst the first round of chaos . . . Well, that’s about it.

One of the issues I had was that my cold got really bad last weekend.  Even gave myself a home covid test, read it wrong, and ended up in the clinic thinking I had covid when I really didn’t.  Helped me get some meds for the really bad cold before it turned into bronchitis or pneumonia.  I kept feeling better, pushing myself a bit, and then ending my day feeling like crap.  Didn’t sleep well because of the congestion, but always woke up at a terrible moment.  Too close to my alarm to really fall back asleep and too far away from it to get moving for the day.  Not fun.

To be fair, I didn’t really rest a lot.  Last Sunday was a day of building shelving units for my son’s room.  Found the ones I needed cheap and put them together.  First unit went smoothly, but the second one had issues.  A dowel broke off right at the edge of the hole, so I had to use a drill and needle nose pliers to get it out.  Not fun when you’re semi-suffering from a cold and wishing you could rest, but the remaining pieces are scattered about your bed and floor.  At least it got done and I was able . . . meet up with my son at a Monday doctor appointment because his cold turned into an asthma issue.  Yeah, last weekend didn’t go smoothly.

Work had some crazy days with PSATs, faculty meeting, and a field trip.  The days really bled together and the custody schedule was thrown off by events too.  I’m having trouble remembering exact events on any day because of all the chaos.  My laptop got stuck updating when I had an important zoom meeting.  Far too may sudden errands and appointments.  I ended every night working on the Atari 2600 Lego Set because my brain needed some type of outlet:

My mood has taken a big hit through all the stress and a few emotional body blows delivered by certain people.  I’ve felt rudderless, pointless, lonely, and all manner of depressing mindsets.  Only time I’ve been okay is at work where I have purpose and when I’m with my son.  Once all of that is over, I’m left lying in my bed and wondering what the point of existing is.  Not really pushing for the writing career and my life is fairly mundane with no chances (financially or time-wise) to do anything exciting.  Every time I get a moment to myself, I’m too tired to do anything more than puzzles, TV, blog posts, or go to bed early.  So, I’m either bored or just so overwhelmed with things I have to do that I can’t add anything fun to the list.

This isn’t going to change this weekend.  I have my son, but we have 3 tests to study for and 2 assignments to finish.  Pumpkin shopping will be respite, but it’s going to be quick and nearby.  We have people coming over today and tomorrow.  Going to try to watch the first ‘Batman’ movie from 1989 and he wants video game time.  Yet, there’s no big outing for the day or even the afternoon.  No fun trip or exciting adventure.  Mostly because we need the whole morning to get schoolwork done.  So, I don’t expect to change my mood this weekend.  It’s another survival period.

I think I mentioned working on a notebook project last weekend.  Never got to it because of my cold and exhaustion.  It’s going to have to be put off until next weekend if I don’t find something else to do.  I’m not going to start on the outline for Darwin & the Demon Game until November.  Need to start preparing and publishing paperback versions of all my books too.  I was saving that project for December, but I think I’ll start doing it little by little now.  I’ve got 27 novels, which all need formatting.  Maybe I’ll get lucky and find the motivation to get them all done by December.

TV-wise I’ve only been watching a Netflix show called ‘Locke & Key’.  I don’t know what to make of it and I’m in Season 3.  It took a little time to get into it and the magic keys were a cool creation.  The characters were interesting until it felt like the magic was being overshadowed by the relationship dramas.  It wasn’t that I lost interest, but I did find myself listening more than watching.  Not sure what I’m going to watch afterwards.  I think I had another live-action show in mind, but I don’t remember.  Probably check another anime off the list.

So, goals of the week?

  1. Work and parenting.
  2. Do more or finish December Blog posts.
  3. Maybe some ‘Phi Beta Files’ preparations.
  4. Watch ‘Batman’ today.
  5. Get over cold.
  6. Get more sleep.
  7. Do a couple paperback set ups if have the energy.
  8. Make a better list goal for the following week because this is a ton of maybes.

About Charles Yallowitz

Charles E. Yallowitz was born, raised, and educated in New York. Then he spent a few years in Florida, realized his fear of alligators, and moved back to the Empire State. When he isn't working hard on his epic fantasy stories, Charles can be found cooking or going on whatever adventure his son has planned for the day. 'Legends of Windemere' is his first series, but it certainly won't be his last.
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7 Responses to Goal Post: Going to Keep My Hopes Low for a While

  1. Hope you feel better soon and not so overwhelmed.


  2. Hopefully a better week coming


  3. Sometimes we just have to check out for a few days and get over the cold and miserable. I parked everything this month so I could do promo without feeling overwhelmed. I’ll pick it all up again later.


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