Nearing the End of Spring Break

I’m going to hate writing this.  Not only because it was a bad week, but I really can’t take the well wishes and optimism.  Hopefully, people read this first part and understand why I’m in this kind of mood.

Due to unexpected events, I didn’t get to spend any time with my son until today.  This is the ONLY day I get with him for Spring Break, which started last Saturday.  If I wasn’t able to get today then it would have been a full 2 weeks since I’d spent time with him.  I spent the entire week angry and miserable because all of our plans were crushed.  Certain entities rose to make things worse.  Best comparison is if somebody locked in a stockade and a person comes to strap a bag full of manure over their head.  I’m not happy about the situation.

I helped a friend install a window and had dinner with him and his family, but it was supposed to be something I took my son too.  So, everything this week has been filled with a level of numbness.  People don’t seem to get that fathers can miss their children.  A few people were confused on why I was acting like a zombie.  Guess society hasn’t reached the point where fathers are allowed to be emotionally connected to children.  Another reason I hate this situation.

My sadness was pushed away a few times.  Last Saturday was Passover without my son who was supposed to be there.  My 6-month-old niece was there though, so I got to play with her a bit.  All of my energy of the day went to making her laugh, which was probably more for my sake than hers.  May have hovered a bit too much.  To be fair, this was at the start of the events and there were ‘incidents’ going on from Friday through Sunday.  I might not have been at my lowest.

Extra suckage went to the fact that Passover meant no pizza as comfort food.

With all other plans destroyed, I spent the week editing.  Barely left my room for anything other than bathroom and food.  Finished editing War of Nytefall: Savagery and should be done implementing the suggestions of a beta reader for Do I Need to Use a Dragon? tomorrow.  That second one might have gone faster if I wasn’t in a fragile mental state.  I took everything personally, including gravity resulting in my seltzer falling off the desk.  You know things are rough when you’re crying and cursing a friggin’ law of nature.  Still, all of the advice has helped me make it a stronger work, especially since non-fiction isn’t my area of expertise.

If I wasn’t editing, I was watching television.  I watched all of ‘Doom Patrol’, which was fun and little depressing.  Come to think of it, I might have been connecting too much with the characters who felt like their luck sucked.  Not the best choice when sad and ending every night with a glass of wine.  I didn’t want to sacrifice another new series to my mood once I finished, so I went back to ‘Arifureta’.  This was a short anime that I watched last year and enjoyed.  I should really watch the final ‘Rurouni Kenshin’ live-action movie at some point.  Maybe tomorrow after I finish editing.  Try to end this Spring Break on a high note since I go back to work on Monday.

With all of the editing done, I’ll be focusing on preparing outlines for the next series. War of Nytefall: Savagery is going to be delayed in getting published a little.  Recent events have made that one tougher and I want to get more volunteers if possible.  Think I only have a handful at this moment.  There might be a post going up tomorrow about it, but I’m not sure.  The new look of WordPress confuses me, especially since I can’t filter through posts by category or time period.  This was an improvement?

On the plus side, I get my son this week and Friday is my birthday.  I might actually get to do something for it this year.  Last time, the lockdowns an quarantines hit around that time, so all of my plans were canceled.  Not that I take my birthday as seriously as I used to since I’m just old.  Every year brings more aches, pains, and regrets.  Wake me when my luck changes and I can celebrate a year where things went well instead of badly or staying the same.

Not sure what else to talk about here since I’m definitely in a mood.  I’m hoping to finish the May posts this week while my son is asleep.  This means I should try to figure out what to do about June.  I’m still aiming for poetry and wondering how this can be done to help with books.  I could do a Monday for each series (Legends, Nytefall, Ichabod, Bedlam), but then I’ve got 9 more to cover Wednesday and Friday.  Characters might not work.  I might just junk the idea and go for fun poem topics.  Nothing structured either.  Just stream of consciousness stuff.  Nothing I do here causes sales anyway.

Goals of the week:

  1. Time with son
  2. Finish editing Do I Need to Use a Dragon?
  3. May posts and June prep
  4. Work and meetings
  5. Pizza
  6. Watch TV
  7. Try to cheer up
  8. Birthday

About Charles Yallowitz

Charles E. Yallowitz was born, raised, and educated in New York. Then he spent a few years in Florida, realized his fear of alligators, and moved back to the Empire State. When he isn't working hard on his epic fantasy stories, Charles can be found cooking or going on whatever adventure his son has planned for the day. 'Legends of Windemere' is his first series, but it certainly won't be his last.
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10 Responses to Nearing the End of Spring Break

  1. Hard to know what to say here. Maybe saying nothing but a hope that things improve is best.

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  2. C.E.Robinson says:

    Pizza, Charles, lot of pizza. It’s like bacon (for some), it makes everything better. 📚🎶 Christine

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  3. I find editing to be tedious at best. Add in the funk of your real life and I really feel for you. Hope thing take a positive turn very soon.

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