I don’t think I can pick a song that can work with all this. (I’ll grab one anyway.) Honestly, I don’t even know how to write this post. The job is going fine and I haven’t done any writing. Those aren’t the big things though. I mean, they would have been, except something happened. Something life-changing happened. It will take months to sort out and I think I’ve already gone through the 5 stages of grief a few times in the last 48 hours. I expect at least one more round of it before the end of the weekend. Heck, I’m tearing up while writing this and just rambling. So, what happened?
Unfortunately, I can’t say. A few people who talk to me in private know. That’s where it will stay for a while because I can’t bring this out into the light right now. It is a major change and alteration to my life that I need to both focus on and distract myself from. If you do think you know what happened then please don’t start suggesting it in the comments. I don’t normally delete them, but I will here. All I can really say is that things are going to change:
- I’m going to be a little more ‘liker’ than ‘commenter’ on other blogs. Being social online is going to be tough because my usual wit is dulled.
- I will be able to get back into writing earlier than expected. Not sure what this means for publishing, but editing will be doable. At least once I get my head together.
- There might be a few dark moments from me. There might also be a few moments where I don’t seem to be making much sense. Bare (bear?) with me.
- I . . . . I . . . Fuck it.
Look, I’m really making this post and the one tomorrow to keep my 900+. Also, I figure not doing a goal post for the first time in 5 years might make people suspicious. This might just be making things worse, especially since I keep having the temptation to flirt the edge of blabbing. I have a strong desire for comfort because I feel so cold, but it’s a chill that hasn’t gone away in 2 days. Maybe I should turn tomorrow’s post into a poem? Nah, too risky.
I’m going to end on a picture of something new that I might be getting. A desk:
Looks like a good one that I will enjoy putting together and using if I can get it.
Goals of the week?
- Continue on.