Goal Post: Where Did The Week Go?

Honestly, I feel like this week was dedicated almost entirely to errands.  I remember driving a lot, weather being wacky, and a few really nasty anxiety attacks.  Good thing I didn’t try to edit or write during this period because it was taking all of my strength to come off as functional both on and off the computer.  I’m noticing that I put a lot of effort into hiding the times I’m having trouble, which is something I’m going to get into a little later.

Progress was gained in a few arenas.  I looked over the outline for War of Nytefall: Temptation, which I think I’ll start writing in May.  This means I won’t give myself time to write the final Raven story before summer, but I might be able to work on that a bit in July while my son has a half-day camp.  My next goal is editing Quest of the Broken-Hearted and then War of Nytefall: Lost.  I hope that editing the second book before writing the third will help me clear my head since I noted a few details I missed when I glanced through.  Things like Titus’s scars and Decker’s medal as well as putting a cameo in that was reserved for the third book.  Oops.  Still, the outline is good to go and I have a plan.  Nearly done with that Sin story outline too and should be completed by the end of the weekend.  Not much else to say on that one.

There was one stumble though.  I’m back to looking for a cover artist for Quest of the Broken-Hearted.  Alison who does War of Nytefall was going to do it, but had to bow out of the summer one.  Totally understandable given the situation and I’m glad she let me know with 2 months before release.  So, I’m going to be looking around again for someone who can do this and not wipe out my dwindling royalty account.  Due to the story being connected to Legends of Windemere, I can’t go for a generic and the overall theme hasn’t really made any of those things click.  That means I can’t go with 99designs either because very few people listen to character descriptions and this one kind of requires they be on there.  I have an idea about who I will contact once I get my act together since I always find it tough to make first contact.  My current bout of anxiety isn’t helping here, but I think I have a plan.

Guess I’ll get to the anxiety thing now.  I had a really bad attack on Wednesday that I was managing to keep hidden, which now strikes me as wrong.  It’s one that I woke up with and got steadily worse throughout the day.  So, I’m trying to think of a way to reveal what I’m going through since it affects me everywhere.  At the same time, I was looking for a new theme for Thursday because I only have one character bio to go before that day is opened up.  I’m thinking of writing about anxiety from my own perspective, but I will admit I’m a little hesitant for a few reasons:

  • This won’t help sell books, which some people will point out.
  • This could make me look weak, which some people have already pointed out when I bring up the topic.
  • It could set off an anxiety attack when I write it and when I reply to comments.
  • The people who read my blog and contact me in private might get set off here.  Not so much in a negative way, but in a way that makes me feel like I should have just kept my mouth shut.  It’s one of those ‘hearts in the right place’ things for some and ‘stop letting people know you’re broken’ thing for others.  This probably frightens me the most because I’ve gotten in trouble over here for being too honest on my blog.  That’s without me naming names too.

I’m going to take a little time this weekend to make a topic list to help me get my head wrapped around this idea.  I’ll be calling it my ‘Anxiety Journal’ and we’ll see how it goes.  If it gets too damaging then I’ll drop it.

Wanting to end on a good note, my schedule is changing up next week because my son is getting moved up to the next martial arts class level.  It’s a little early in terms of age, but he’s great at listening and focusing.  So, we’re going to see how this goes.  It means the class is later in the evening and one is on a Thursday instead of a Friday, but we’ll adjust as we move along.  My nights might get a little more rushed in terms of writing unless he has dinner before he goes.  He’s very happy and proud, but I think he’s a little sad that he won’t be with his friends.  He can still see them as they pass each other and the martial arts camps tend to be for everyone.  Still, this is a big step for him and I hope it boosts his confidence even more.

So, what are the plans for the week?

  1. Edit Quest of the Broken-Hearted
  2. Make list for Anxiety Journal and write first entry
  3. Adjust schedule for changes
  4. Biking, cooking, and the usual
  5. Finish writing the Sin outline
  6. Start reading ‘Ready Player One’
  7. Take son to see baby chicks (is that repetitive?) at the library before they’re gone.
  8. Play more Lego Indiana Jones

About Charles Yallowitz

Charles E. Yallowitz was born, raised, and educated in New York. Then he spent a few years in Florida, realized his fear of alligators, and moved back to the Empire State. When he isn't working hard on his epic fantasy stories, Charles can be found cooking or going on whatever adventure his son has planned for the day. 'Legends of Windemere' is his first series, but it certainly won't be his last.
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17 Responses to Goal Post: Where Did The Week Go?

  1. John howell says:

    I hope your week goes well. Congrats to the young en for the step up.

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  2. Anxiety is nothing to apologize for, and nothing to feel weak about. I find that sometimes I have to take time away from people and the computer… Not that I don’t have some amazing support here, but sometimes you mind can make things worse and it’s just good to step back and breathe. I hope that your plans come to fruition, and your anxiety journal is a very good idea because sometimes putting your thoughts on paper when you experience them can help you figure out what is triggering the attacks. Good luck!! 💖

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  3. Jennie says:

    Baby chicks and LEGO Indiana Jones sounds terrific!

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  4. It sure was a fast week, I agree with you, it would be nice if time would just slow down and let us all catch up.
    Good luck with everything next week.

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  5. Elle Knowles says:

    I don’t think any less of you when you admit defeat. You have a lot on your plate and in my opinion, you have accomplished a lot of what you planned on! Kids – and family – need a lot of attention, whether they are right beside you or off at school. Hang in there…~Ell

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  6. That’s great about your son moving up in martial arts class!

    I know from experience that you can’t just ignore the issues triggering anxiety attacks, but I just wanted to say… In case it helps… That this is your blog, and as long as you aren’t breaking any laws by doing so, you can post about whatever you want. No matter what you post, someone’s going to have a problem with it; pleasing everyone is impossible, and there’s no use trying. So, pick a topic/theme you’re happy with, and go with it. If it helps any, I’ve discovered that a lot of people who read blogs actually do want to hear about things like that. When I asked my own followers, the couple who bothered to answer told me they like hearing about day to day stuff, because it makes the person behind the blog seem real, and like hearing about how your health is and such, because they care about how the people behind the blogs are doing. This isn’t true for everyone, but it seems to be a popular feeling, since I also know a couple of bloggers who asked something similar on their own blogs, and got a similar response to the one I got. What I’m trying to say is: some people are interested in things like your anxiety issues and such, so if you want to post about them you should do so. If others don’t like it… Well, they can skip reading those posts.

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    • Thanks. The issue here is that there might be some consequences that trigger the attacks. This might become especially true when I touch on some of the darker sides of this. It’s more bugging and not easing off when I ask or flat out criticism that I’m worried about. Some people in my non-cyber circle feel like such things shouldn’t be openly discussed, which means they’ll make this opinion known. In a way, it could defeat the purpose of the whole thing if those are the only ones I hear from, so we’ll see what happens.

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