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I’ll put the usual music video that nobody watches on the bottom.  Let’s get right into this thing . . . Can I take a nap first?

The main reason I’m so tired is because we had a Nor’easter on Wednesday, which you wouldn’t think would cause a problem.  It was all about timing.  We lost power a few minutes after I began charging my phone, which is also my alarm clock.  This resulted in a night of me repeatedly jolting awake because I was terrified that I would be late for work. The power didn’t come back until I was already at work, so I didn’t get a shower (water too cold!) and I couldn’t find anything in the kitchen.  I was lucky to have grabbed my leftover pizza instead of something else since we had to quickly open, snatch, and close the fridge without being able to see anything inside.  McDonald’s was my savior in terms of breakfast though.  Not the healthiest, but it was something.  Had a few dizzy spells too throughout the day, but I made it to the end.

This really set the tone for the rest of the week because I was so busy.  There was an appointment or activity every night, which is how it’s going to be for a few months.  It means I won’t be able to use weeknights to write my book or get much done in the way of blogging.  That second thing is an issue because I have the following on deck:

1. 7 December posts to schedule.
2. 2 Legends Revisited posts to schedule for the year.
3. 6 known January posts to schedule.
4. 3 January posts that I have no topics for.  (HELP!)

You might think I have time to get this done, but I’ve been sitting on the first one for about a month because my days are chaotic.  I’ve ended most by crawling into bed or collapsing in a chair in front a puzzle that I think I drooled on at some point.  So, I can’t depend on time working in my favor since we’re almost to Halloween and then comes November.  I don’t want to spend Christmas week (no school and my son is with his mother) doing all of the blogging.  I can feasibly get 4-5 chapters of War of Nytefall: Ravenous done in that span of time.  I want my blogging deck cleared by then, which feels like a more uphill battle than it should be.  Positive thoughts and hope won’t get me through this, especially with how next week is going to be.  I don’t expect to get much done until the following weekend and half of that has already been booked.

On the plus side, I did get the Prologue and Chapter 1 of War of Nyefall: Ravenous done last weekend.  It was a good start and I did a little editing already when I had time.  Adding in a drug addiction storyline is a challenge because I need to look into how that can manifest while considering this isn’t a human suffering.  It’s not something I originally planned when I came up with the story, but I think it can work.  Oddest thing is that I’m touching on more sensitive topics with the Dawn Fangs than I did with the champions of Legends of Windemere.  I’m looking forward to working more on this story because I’m curious.  The earliest I can jump back into it is Friday night though, which is frustrating.

I’m thinking of making Thursday my ‘no work’ night.  The martial arts nights and my son’s weekly group session don’t tax me emotionally like the coparenting sessions.  I came home feeling out of it and kind of hurting.  Better to put my son to bed and plop down with the puzzle.  I couldn’t even focus on what I put on the TV, so I will either do the news or an anime I’ve already seen.  That way I’ve got some noise and it isn’t a horrible thing if it’s nothing more than environmental static in my head.  All I’ve got on Netflix now is ‘Wynonna Earp’ Season 3 and ‘Glow’ Seasons 2-3, so I can take my time.  Really having trouble finding anything new on there since I don’t watch much on regular cable these days.

Wow.  I thought this post would take less time, but I’m dragging my feet.  I guess it’s off to the puzzle until I have to run some errands then pick up the munchkin.  Maybe the problem is me.  I’m so drained and stretched mentally that it’s hard to get moving quickly or for extended periods of time.  Not that this is new since I’ve been like this for about a year.  Seems to be getting worse, which might be due to the ‘anniversary’ of the divorce starting being about 1.5 months away.  People keep asking me if I’ve moved on, moved out, healed, began dating again, and a whole load of questions that hurt.  I’m still focused on making sure my son is okay during this time.  One reason is because I feel like I can’t advance faster than a crawl.  TA Level 3 can’t be reached for until Thanksgiving and then I need to figure out what I have to do for a teaching certification.  Books aren’t selling and I lack time and funds for promos.  Want to submit to a few things, but I can’t due to the divorce not being finalized.  Maybe that’s the event I need to really begin pushing forward again.  At least in some fashion because I definitely feel like I’d be terrible in a relationship these days with my trust issues.  Funny how this hasn’t really cropped up in War of Nytefall when I write it, especially with Clyde and Mab being characters formerly played by me and the ex-wife.  You’d think I’d junk that relationship, but I’m still chugging along with them in how I planned it out.

So, what are the goals of the week?

1. Get more blogging scheduled.
2. Time with son when he’s home.
3. Teaching  (This is a busy week for that)
4. Get a Halloween costume of some kind.
5. Writing next weekend.
6. Puzzle stuff.
7. Laundry because pants are required outside of the house.
8. Something that I’m probably forgetting at this point.
9. Catch up on sleep . . . Is that even possible outside of a coma?
10. Post the music video, which is oddly more positive and uplifting than you would expected from me.